Wednesday, April 13, 2005
i feel weird.
sort of like beyond the point of sad but not depressed.
distressed. maybe...
i'm at the stage where it's just too heartbreaking to cry. it feels numb. i'm just void-ED.
i totally wasnt in the mood to sudy for chem n a math yesterday. super lousy. i know wishing isnt gonna change the outcome but still, i wish... well, u noe wad i wish for. i noe i noe.. dont feel too upset n we must move on but i guess if i can bring myself to unlock the pent up melancholy, i will pass this terrible stage. so god
HELP ME. make me cry.
i gave it my best. and i noe u did too. i dunno why some foolish beings are pointing their crooked finger to others. we are a team. we play as one. why bother to fight? i think it's useless.
i agree with ex-senior-leader hui min. totallie yepp. the best thing that can ever happen and the thing that is the most important is to play with your heart and soul. because then, all u feel is this amazing undescribable (haha sp looks funny. ok wtv) beautiful and invaluable feeling. and it stays with you and leave you feeling warm all over. and everything seems complete. i felt it and i knew some others felt it too. it's beyond what the score tells you and i yearn to feel it again. it's reeli, absolutely the
MOST FABULOUS AND BREATHTAKING feeling in the world.
anyway for the ASEAN thing next thurs.. me n jenn got the last country- Brunei. wells, hope tt brunei is not bad. haha farney man must go n act as sultan. boo. so catch us looking retarded.
i made it known at 5:19 AM
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